Wednesday, June 21, 2017

School's Out!

The results of Carrie Fisher's toxicology tests have just thrown me for a loop this week. See, I'm one of those people who goes around saying every failure, every stumble, every relapse is part of the plan, in each one is hidden a vital lesson we have yet to learn in order to get to where we are meant to be. Obviously, if you quit drinking or drugging and then decide to try again, you had another lesson to learn. Right? That's what I used to think. But what one more lesson did Carrie need to learn? That addiction kills? That you shouldn't waste your chances? That those chances aren't without limit? That we know everything we need to know and we are wasting our lives waiting for that final magical lesson that is going to teach us something magical that will change the path of our life forever? That lesson doesn't exist and if you're waiting for it, you are wasting precious time.

So today I'm out there re-considering some things I once considered true. Sometimes we don't need to have anymore lessons, at some point we have to STOP looking for more education and spend the rest of our lives applying the lessons we have been taught.

The above meme could just as easily say, "Nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could have saved our life."

Sometimes I ponder drinking again, maybe in 10 years, maybe if I take a trip to Paris or Italy... but you know what? I've learned the "I can quit drinking and be happier than I ever was drinking" lesson, I don't need to re-learn it.

How The Heck Are You?


  1. I have been a seeker and I still am, but I stopped asking the books and the stars. I started listening to the teaching of my Soul.

    This rumi quote reminds me that sometime, when I am satisfied with things as they are, I need to stop trying to undermine my one contentment.


  2. Very powerful thoughts KM and Anne - "I need to stop trying to undermine my one contentment"

    I have too been thinking about lessons and what they teach us, again to defer to J Judy's boo (someone will yell at me soon if I keep quoting her) she writes simply we don't learn by our failures, we learn from our success.
    This helps me move away from the negativity of "I was a drunk and I learned not to drink" to "I am sober and I love it"
    Michelle xx

    1. I love the "I am sober and I love it" as a motivator, it encourages me to keep keeping "it green" as they say. While I am content, I also, as Anne, says am a seeker and I need exploration and discovery to keep reminding me to be grateful.