"Life is meant to be a celebration! It shouldn't be necessary to set aside special times to remind us of this fact. Wise is the person who finds a reason to make every day a special one."
Overcoming Addiction Quote by Leo F. Buscaglia (March 1924 - June 1998)
Can you believe it? I took the hill and conquered the 30 day abs but I know this is just one skirmish in my battle and I have yet to begin to fight. I didn’t really have a strategy this time but I think several things fell into place. One was the cap’n was working so the daily cocktail hour schedule was disrupted (that never stopped me before), my grandson and son came for a visit (as much as I wanted it to, that never stopped me either) and I decided on day 11 of this attempt at a 30 day abs that instead of another doomed attempt at moderation I was turning all my forces towards permanent abs’ing (done been there, too) So I don’t know what the magic spell was, maybe it was those early mornings spent with my Co-writer in his house mapping out our battle plan and letting him take command that worked (hadn’t tried that in a long time). Victory is sweet but I know it can be fleeting so I’ll be on guard. Thanks for sticking with me in the foxholes.
The cap’n will be home in 3 days and I’m a little frantic to get everything done I want to get done before he gets here but I’m going to take a moment to savor my triumph and celebrate with a pat on the back and I invite you to join me whether you’re on Day 1 or Day 1000, whether you’re shaky and feel like crap but you’re still not going to take that drink that will give you instant relief, whether you’re weaning off and today you’re going to drink one less or one-half less than you did yesterday, or whether reading this blog is your first step. Celebrate the fact that you’ve discovered the truth that you have a problem and that you have the desire to do something about it. That in itself is a huge victory. Take a moment but then jump into the fray because if you’re not advancing you’re retreating.
So today I’m out there honing my battle wits and hoping my varnish dries before it rains or I get off this computer and varnish before it rains.
Started reading your blog from the beginning. I'm on day 13. I'm a 55 year old binge drinker, drink my wine until I'm a royal blacked out bitch. Thinking of moderating after day 30, but having doubts about that working out. Can a person with a drinking problem ever be successful at moderation? Love your writing, thanks for sharing your stories.
ReplyDeleteYes, people that have drinking problems can learn to moderate, there are success stories over at Moderation Management and if you're active on MM, that's what you're there to figure out. Are you going to be one of the success stories about someone that learned to moderate, or are you going to be a success story about someone who accepted the fact that they couldn't moderate, or didn't want to spend any more of their life trying to figure out, and decided to abs. I'm glad you like the blog, I hope you continue to read on past the point where I decided to go perm abs and you find comfort in the fact that my life hasn't been the barren gray existence I once imagined it would be without drinking. I hope it makes you less afraid of a life without booze and allows you to make an informed decision when the time comes.
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