Day 317 of Sobriety
Well, I had a whole 'nother blog planned but then a friend called to talk about her mother who has dementia and is needing to be put in a nursing home and my friend's family isn't stepping up and they are letting my friend carry the load. So I let her unload some of her load on me for about an hour and then it was too late to write my intended blog but I thought what a blessing it was to be able to be there for my friend at 8:00 in the evening, and to be sober, and to be just listening without interrupting, and I wondered if I had still been drinking, would she have thought about calling me and then thought, "I really need to talk to someone and I really want to talk to Kary but she's probably drunk by now and I can't deal with that tonight." I'm glad she called.
So the hour I was going to spend writing the other blog is gone and I really need to get in the shower but I really want to talk to you guys too so I thought I'd just tell you about my blessings on this Thursday night.
I have two bags of spicy, nutty cheddar wafers that I just baked, while dangling on the phone talking with my friend, all bagged up and ready to go for the going away party for my boss at work tomorrow. I've tried about a dozen of them and they are delicious.
Mr. Stanley, the blind killer bichon is prowling around grazing for crumbs. His eyes might not work worth a shit, but his nose is stellar and his tail still wags when I call his name.
After hanging up with my girlfriend, I called the cap'n via skype and he just finished eating the steak he grilled up at his temporary home away from home. He hasn't had a drink in a month and won't have one for another month because of work, and we both made the comment that this will be the first summer we've ever spent sober. Two years ago, we wouldn't have even considered it.
In about 5 minutes, I'm going to go jump in the shower and then I'm going to let Mr. Stanley out one last time, then I'm going to crawl into bed, maybe read a little, (Yes, that book, Lulu), then I'm going to say goodnight to a few people no longer of this world and then say a few thanks to my Co-writer. Then I'll fall asleep. And tomorrow I'll wake up without a hangover.
Pretty ordinary, huh? Some of you might not even be able to find the blessings in this post because you've not let all your ordinary, run of the mill blessings slip away yet. You don't notice them until they are gone. For me, every single ordinary night is a miracle. Don't ever let me forget it.
Hi Kary,
ReplyDeleteWishing I had an ordinary night rather than another argument with my daughter. Wishing I was asleep rather than woken with a headache in the middle of the night. Wishing for not this any more. God give me the strength to follow in your footsteps Kary.
There was a time, not very long ago, nights like last night looked like an impossible dream. I could remember having some of them, barely. You know what you have to do, and if I can do it, you can. Keep asking God for help, and don't be afraid to reach out to the rest of us. We're here for you.
ReplyDeleteAlone we can't do it, Nothing is impossible when we do it together with our Higher Power's help. Grateful you're grateful, and we're both sober! Rock on Kary May!!
ReplyDeleteI tried alone for a long time and didn't get anywhere but deeper into alcoholism, and I didn't sober up the first time I reached out either but every time I reached out there was someone there and they were finally able to pull me from the depths. Thank you guys!
DeleteThe ordinary blessings are the most amazing! My kids are still asleep so I can catch up on my blog reading. I'm so grateful. Your gratitude is inspiring!
ReplyDeleteI really believe that gratitude is the key because the more we say "Thank you" the more remind ourselves of the good things we have and don't want to lost again.
DeleteI love ordinary. There was a time I would spend all of my energy running away from it. Now I embrace it.
ReplyDeleteI yearned for ordinary.
Deletehope you're enjoying the book...hehehehehe
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There my be a brief period of time, between reading and my nightly prayers, for which I can't be accountable. ;)
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